I must say… the past 2 weeks has been the most trying of all of 2014.
I could say and ask God Well, I mean, I do everything you tell me to. I go out in ministry when you tell me to. I give, and pour into others. I have been changing for the good. I have declared you my Lord more than I have ever done. I have open my door to those who need it. I have cut off people as you instructed me. I have prayed more than I have done ever before. I have given myself fully to you.
I mean, I did say that to God. I said all of these things to Him. So for the last two weeks, and really past month with a lot of things that has been moving and shaking in my life, I have been reverencing to God like never before. Crying out to him. Praying constantly. Basically said, I have been doing everything ‘right’.
And of all the worship and praise I give to Him, how selfish to question Gods authority and will for my life? Yeah, I call it selfish. Because, it really is. I just said in The “Rest” that we shouldn’t put expectations on God’s ‘rest’. Whatever the rest is based on His will, we shouldn’t complain or fight it. We must simply just do and be obedient.
After praying fervently yesterday, pouring out to Him with a large and deep cry to Him, He personally led me to the scripture Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord, ‘plans for well-being and not for trouble, to give you a future and a hope.”
The fact is, I know God is real. I know His Word is true. God doesn’t lie. He doesn’t forgets. He doesn’t go back on His promises. He doesn’t waver, when everything is being chaotic. He is all knowing. He is very constant. He is true. And He loves me. I know all of this. And as hard as it may be in the test of my faith, I have to trust what he says. It’s no coincidence God led me to that scripture after seeking Him yesterday. He assured me, Amber, I got you. I know what’s best for you. I know, and I see you. And that was good enough for me. Speaking with my pastor recently, he also confirmed the same thing. That there are no surprises with God. Even though we may be surprised, shocked, and feel discouragement with people, there is no surprise with God. He, sometimes, put things in our way to help us grow our faith in Him. James 1: 2 & 3 tells us “Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3 For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow…” So, knowing my faith is about to be stretched beyond what it already is now, is definitely a great chance to show God what I am really made of.
We can’t rely on our own strength, understanding when it comes to His Will. I felt myself trying to construct my troubles, trying to find a way out on my own. Trying to comprehend what was being presented, comprehending people and putting my head around it. I was putting my hand in it. But that’s not what He wants us to do. He wants us to just simply trust that He has His hand in it already. Actually, He has already worked it out anyway. He has the perfect order in our own lives, when we don’t. What we see, is not what He sees. “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,’ says the Lord. ‘And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.’” Isaiah 55:8.
So as I continue, I simply encourage those who have a hard time grasping what seems out of your hands. Fact is, it should be out of your hands. Then you can honestly say “God, my life is in your hands! God I have faith in you and I can trust you completely. I am not going to construct my ways any longer. When I feel like you are not there, I have faith you are! I know you already have my expected end, so I just trust you in the process. Thank you God for allowing Your Will in my life be done.” And God is very well pleased when we do this.
I just absolutely love the blogger Heather Lindsey. If you have a moment to watch about 45 minutes worth, she puts furthermore how we should be able to trust Him through the process. I watched her Youtube yesterday, and absolutely was amazed at how she puts our nature trusting Him.
Continuing on in prayer ~Amber