I’m thinking, “If this lady email me, one more time! I sent her about 2 different proposals for large groups that she declined both of them, and now she is asking for another one? Why even bother? Why waste my time?”
I come in on Monday morning, checking emails from the weekend, and see yet another email from her wanting the ‘all exclusive’ package for her client in Miami on a yacht, with all the trimmings. Again. Not only did I quote her on two different occasions and she hasn’t booked, she keeps coming back to me? Why? Frustration kicked in and immobilized me to want to do anything for her. “It’s going to be a no again, so why bother?” I keep asking this to myself as I keep reading the email over and over and over again.
I don’t want to quote her. I want to pretend I didn’t get the email. I want to just go along with my day.
But right there in the train of these thoughts I get a Amber, this is your job! And I don’t know if it is the Holy Spirit or my common sense talking, but I realized, yes, this is my job. How many times I went to vendors time and time again asking for a quote, in hopes my client will book and they didn’t? How many times must they felt ‘frustrated’ because they kept giving and giving with no return? Why would they waste their time?
An in an instant, I realized that it wasn’t about me anymore. So I scrambled to gather her a proposal she waited since Friday go get. SEND.
How many times we rationalize with ourselves that “I feel that I shouldn’t do this,” or “I have a right to refuse this,” or “Based on the history of this,” that we are obligated to fall out of our duty? It’s a heavy cross we take up following Jesus. One of the biggest things we must learn and continue to exemplify is that it’s not about us. Not about our feelings, not about what we feel like we should do, not about our circumstances. It’s about others.
Matthew 18:21-22 NLT says “ Then Peter came to him and asked, “Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?” “No, not seven times,” Jesus replied, “but seventy times seven!”
Ok, so I am not saying that my client ‘sinned’ against me. But this parable still holds true to it, just the same. When I feel the ‘why bother’ syndrome, I must realize it is my called upon duty to show others grace, even when I feel like they don’t deserve it. I mean, really. Who am I to say you don’t deserve it? I have to catch myself when those thoughts come in my mind. When they try to manifest into my heart. As many times as I feel I have the right to say & do a lot of things, I must know that I am obligated by the Word of God to project grace and love to everyone. When I feel the world let me down again, and I have a right to be bitter, I must deny my own self and own feelings, and PUSH through the pain. When I feel that I have done so much for others, and get nothing in return, I must remember, that was my duty anyway. When I feel that others don’t deserve another chance, remember, we too, get another chance every day, 365 days a year.
Mother Teresa so eloquently put it, “Do It Anyway” in the post below. I encourage you, no matter what, remember it is your job to do it anyway. ~Prayers to you. xoxo, Amber